Think of it like this:

You are a parent with 2 children. There is one piece of cake left. How do you cut the piece so both children will be happy? You cannot cut it in half because either child (or both) will say the other received more cake.

The only good solution is to allow one child to cut the cake and the other to choose the piece they want. That way if the cake is cut unfairly, the other child get the larger piece.

tl;dr the cake is a lie

With all certainty

Every day, I find myself in awe of our partnership. We have similar taste in food, views on spending and long-term dreams like travel and adventure. We are complementary in terms of temperament, outlook, studying and conflict resolution style.


I admit it, you've really captured me -- mind, heart and soul. I can't get over how incredible, awesome, good and amazing you are for me (I just hope it's the same for you with me). Our telepathy powers and strategic search for solutions to everyday petty (and sometimes big!) problems really just make me smile.

I love your quirks -- your small mole under the backside of your head, you insisting to organize your stuff sequentially before studying (a new thing for a random person like me), you checking the Google Maps like the holy Qur'an.  Also: how your lips twist into a cute smile. :)

Needless to say, I can't help but fall for you, the molecules comprising you, and everything I can be when I'm with you.

I hope this is not a too self-absorbed statement, but

Being showered with love by people all around me is a nice feeling, I guess. :)

Somewhere in time

Shedding tears for you, I miss you.

This has been the theme of my life -- important people leaving, then me having to toughen up my heart so as not to feel sorry for myself or feel a dent inside. When I was a kid I had once wondered if you care for me or love me but now I know you do. Although you seldom show me affection (because you might not be that type of person. We are similar that way). Although during my childhood you were far, far away for a longer time than you were here. Although there are some very basic father-daughter things that I'll probably never be able to experience.

I seldom cried about you when I was a kid, but now, there's a moment of longing that envelops me each time I think about you. I cry each time l wonder where you are, how you've been, if our lack of adequate bonding for the time being affects you as much as I hope it does.

Such is the theme of my life -- quite sad if you ask me. If there's any consolation, well there are hundreds of thousands of my fellowmen who may be experiencing something quite similar to something brewing here inside for a long, long time -- even my entire lifetime, maybe.

I wonder how it will be somewhere in time, in a far, far place filled with happiness and simplicity.

There need not be flashy cars, big houses nor grand entrances. Enjoy the simple pleasures of life. It's what you taught me.

We can be happy together. We can be enough for one another.

cool word # 1

gamut |ˈgamət|

noun (the gamut)

1 the complete range or scope of something: the whole gamut of human emotion.

2 Music a complete scale of musical notes; the compass or range of a voice or instrument.

• historical a scale consisting of seven overlapping hexachords, containing all the recognized notes used in medieval music, covering almost three octaves from bass G to treble E.

• historical the lowest note in this scale.

PHRASES

run the gamut experience, display, or perform the complete range of something: wines that run the gamut from dry to sweet.

ORIGIN late Middle English: from medieval Latin gamma ut, originally the name of the lowest note in the medieval scale (bass G an octave and a half below middle C), then applied to the whole range of notes used in medieval music. The Greek letter Γ (gamma) was used for bass G, with ut indicating that it was the first note in the lowest of the hexachords or six-note scales (see solmization) .

So many things messing up my mind right now. @___@

Catching my breath.

When you don’t create things, you become defined by your tastes rather than ability. Your tastes only narrow and exclude people. So create.

Mommy's birthday is coming up! Half a month to go, woohoo. I want to make this a special affair =)) Let's go save money for gifts and make letters and prepare :-j

http://www.ivanhenares.com/2012/10/get-ready-for-international-cultural.html

Go back to my roots
Do something fun
Learn something new

What if I can make this happen this sembreak? :D

The walk to home felt as lovely as this song.

Give me some time.

new approach in life: KEBS SA STRESS :)

Hmmmm

Motorcycle. Fast. Most exciting fantasy dream for quite some time.

1. When you dream about motorcycles and that you are riding one, this may symbolize that you desire freedom. This could symbolize that you have a rebellious spirit or you have an impulse to take some risks in your life. This may mean that you don't necessarily want to live wild and die young, but in your dream this can feel like a lot of fun for you to just break free and ride with the wind.

Because I miss you, blog :">

The reality of life is sapping my creative energies (but not my happiness hihi :) ). The dream is still alive, gotta embark on another personal project this coming sembreak. #motivatiooon :D

Progress on savings: P2500 away from another batch/roll of savings.

If ever I'll spend a portion of my savings sometime, here are the possible things I'll spend it on. Highly improbable though because I'm generally stingy. Hahaha.

1. Pretty camera (lomo/proper)

2. Organizational tools (spluuuurge \:D/)

3. Paint/wallpaper/home decorating materials (because I want to fix our library at home. Can ask money from Mommy though :D )

4. Recording microphone! --> says Carlos. not so keen on this idea anymore though. ._.

5. Faux beautiful flowers for my room--> Something to make me smile when I get home from Manila :) Pink and/or orange and/or white, basta dainty. :D 

6. Workshops! Events! Concerts! 

7. Makeup, then I'll learn how to put on eyeliner like Pauline. :))))) ---> obviously I'm kiddeng

8. A pretty chandelier, still for my room. Puro room talaga! Inaagiw na nga dahil walang nakatira eh. :))

9. Geeky and super-functional watch!!! #yesplease

But no, these are just aspirations as I find it hard to convince myself to purchase these things and "waste" money nga. :)) Better yet, I need to find a racket first so I can earn money and spare my hard-earned (weh) savings from being consumed.

Sad Smile

The sorrow in your eyes overpowers the twinkle I think I've seen from the corner of my eye eight full moons ago.

It haunts me.

I'm sorry for being a huge disappointment.

Now look at me

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
What an interesting discovery.
Hahahahahahahahaha.

//keyboard tapping- so relaxing
ZEN ZEN ZEN

Life is so much sweeter with you around.

Although, yes it's not practical/rational/necessary/whatever. I don't care :))

#Gowritesilly's Babawness

Song addressed to crush during the early days. Haha. Marami pang iba. :))

Good night world.

My refuge is a world in ruins -- the world of slumber. 

How did I get here and when did living get this complicated again?

Early Sem Break Idea

I want to fix and organize our library/children's room! Chyeah.

First step, I think, would be to toss A LOT of things.

So so so excited to do this project. I just hope I don't forget come sembreak time :))

JksGDNOK (The hard-to-pronounce band)

Good news! We won third place in the recently-concluded Fridays at the East (FATE) event at the PGH Science Hall. :) I believe this was not an easy feat given that we had seasoned performers and residents as competitors. In fact, I was kind of intimidated when I heard the first band perform since they really gave off that lively and energetic aura that I thought our band might not be able to reproduce.

But my bandmate, Ichi, told me to just give that all-out performance and enjoy, which is exactly what I did. The performance was a novel and refreshing break from the OrgChem and NatSci exam that plagued us during the same day (though it was kind of a nerve-wracking experience in itself too. Haha). Anyway, more than the victory, I'm really glad that I got to perform with a new bunch of people -- my bandmates -- whom I really respect for their amazing talents. Performing is something I really love yet I don't get to do often, so FATE was one hell of a ride for me. The presence of my very supportive parents and classmates made this event even sweeter.

And yes, I hope we can do more of these gigs in the future. \m/

Watching clips of scary movies to keep myself awake.
I feel sick @-)

The Animals is kinda haunting ah. Super sulit ng 100 :)

P.S. Ang gwapo ni Albie and ang ganda ni Dawn. Yun lang :))

Things I want to save up for (or convince someone else to buy for me, i.e. parents)

-Aiza Seguerra's 25th Anniversary Concert with my Lola (so I can finally check concert-watching in my 2012 bucket list heehee. jologs na kung jologs, gusto ko eh, bakit ba haha. )
- Phantooooom! Baka magkaubusan na ng ticket. Gosh.
-Carlos Celdran Tour talagaa sa Old Manila. Pero masyado akong nanghihinayang sa mahal ng charge niya.
-Well actually, basta art-related na free, go!!! :)

In other news, I found a really cute and girly planner at home! Coolness! Angat yung coolness factor dahil, well, free. HAHAHA.

Also, I find that I enjoy singing in a band really well. Dapat yata sumali ako ng MORG :-"

Hedgehogs and strategic locations

HIIB

Past-mid-year realizations

1. Don't get obsessed with an idea. Rather, be open to detours and change.
2. Use the good and potent effects of novel ideas/things to your advantage.
3. Alone time almost always never hurts.
4. I should make an organized database of movies I watched/books I read/stuff I devoured file for next year (2013). I'm a big fan of remembering things. :)

It annoys me how certain kiddos here in the house feel entitled and act reckless with their spending habits. I really do, I really do. While a frequent Johna scenario involves spending three days contemplating whether she should buy a six hundred-peso dress she likes (and by the way most often she doesn't), they go and spend three thousand pesos on a toy whose appeal will fizz out on two or three days. Gah.

What future is in store for you people?

P.S. I survived a three-day-sale encounter at the mall unscathed (meaning, no purchases). Well, save for a piece of peach Danish bread. Heehee.

P.P.S. Private reading (sshh!) of an entrepreneurship book from cover to cover @ National. 400 bucks saved, ka-ching :)

Virtual Dream Log # 1

Napapansin kong ang pangunahing tema ng aking panaginip sa mga makalipas na gabi ay umiikot sa _____ at kadalasang fear-driven.

GV Morning!

Let see if this carries on the entire day.

And... just in this short span of time, an altogether new mood just came over me. Oh well, the enormity of the fuck I don't give.

- - - - - - - - - - - - -
Okaykaykay, suddenly it struck me so wellwellwell
Ikaw nanana

And for once, I don't even care

Coming full circle in 3,2,1... done

We're back to the real world and the list of quizzes

There's something about *you* now. 

 not good, not what you think

(an altogether different topic)

Calm tides finally

Can't believe I saved P10,000 (~250USD) in two weeks. Pak! More to go piggy bank. :))

Watta (pun intended) month

So many things to do. Get ready to spread yourself thin.

Kaya mo yan! Kaya mong lagpasan lahat ng bagay puwera na lang kung mamatay ka na. @_@

"Of all the girls who asked me to remember them, the only one I remembered is the one who did not ask."

I believe

I know what's right and wrong; I will prove myself worthy.

I am in control of my schedule; I shall not squander time.

It is me who decides; I shall make the right choices.

I hold the key

to happy times and good fortune.

I am stronger than I think I am,

impenetrable by the darkness of outside forces.

I will manage myself

because no one else will do it for me.

Dear Self,

I give you a hug >:D<

I wish you luck. 

You'll have the magic back.

growth

tumult

internal turmoil 

an altogether new landscape:

[ ] talk to your parents

[ ] be true to yourself

[ ] remember why you're here 

[ ] please please please get a grip

a few minutes to think 

and just be you

and not have to worry about anything else.

YOU ARE NOT IN CANDYLAND, CLOUD NINE, OR A CASTLE.

YOU ARE HERE, YOU ARE NOW. 

You're the only one who can love and take care of yourself in the most real way possible.

So love yourself.

Intense feelings

Flooding this blog like a boss~

WHY DID I LEAVE MY HARD DRIVE AT THE DORM @-)

I WANT TO WATCH CHICK FLICKS RIGHT NOW BECAUSE OF THE CHILLY WEATHER HUHU.

The Birthday Dream

-aka rite of passage that fills the gap in my thrill-seeking tendencies

Mala-Eat Pray Love ang peg. 

http://www.wanderrgirl.com/2012/07/notes-to-self-arriane-abbey-travel-alone/

18 is not a super young age to be independent and self-reliant.
Can I stress that enough. :))

After watching Taken before, I slightly got paranoid though :))

Operation convince-your-lola-and-everyone-else-in-the-family, here we come (!!!)

What is frustrated 'trep.

Someday, I'm gonna make these dreams come true. HAHAHA.

In the meantime, I'm gonna read the August issue of Entrepreneur magazine lying around our house.

Also: it's the first time in a long time that I read a newspaper. I mean, in its physical and tangible form. Funny how I needed to do that to realize (again, after a loong time) that the world is huuuuge. Self, why do you need a newspaper to affirm the fact that your life does not revolve around schoolwork?

But anyway, I'm off to study Origin-Insertion-Action again to see if my crazy mnemonics worked. Ironic. The title of the Word file reads, "Ultimate Mnemonics Edition to Save My Life." @-)

Girly-ing, aka study break

[ ] So where do I find pretty dreamcatcher necklaces :-"

---------❤--------

AFTER BIO LAB EXAM, I PROMISE TO MAKE THE MOST OF MY LIFE AND QUIT DOING UNPRODUCTIVE THINGS.

Unproductive = boring, repetitive, predictable stuff

(except studying, of course)

I need 

[ ] energy

[ ] motivation

[ ] consistency

[ ] commitment

Studyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

._.

These are the sorts of things that will pretty much make me nostalgic in the future.

Hay, life.

after eons

Hi blog. Sorry that I've forsaken you.

Whenever a new friend or mere acquaintance mentions that he/she reads my blog, there's always a momentary sense of discomfort introduced into the equation, probably brought by self-consciousness or mere embarrassment from the enormity of sap that manages to make its way here. For a while I didn't want to add fuel to the fire (rawr as if a gazillion people reads your blog anyway), so I decided to keep safe from that possibility and skip recording events here altogether (no matter how vague I craft my words in the first place).

But today someone mentioned this virtual space during a conversation again, and this someone -- who happens to be none other than my crush -- has read certain posts exactly all about him. I know what you're thinking. Coolness, right? You know, the sarcastic type. If it were unrequited "like" I would have probably put a water gun to my head already and/or locked myself in a room (too bad I can't even have alone time these days), but thank goodness that it's just one of those let's-laugh-about-it-together moments.

Since this crush already reads this blog anyway and I have yet to resurrect this blog for the nth by depositing a substantial story during my 2nd year life, I'll probably leave a tidbit today.

a very crappy poem that summarizes my feelings in the most vague way i can manage

much ado about the future and everything
leaves you with nothing
if at all you succeed
in confession, the love you breed,
you skip stones, deliver hope
but leave out the bread and butter of good times in
conversation, smiles, cheer and company

i love
the gift,
the present.

These days it's my current take on an exciting life.
More to come soon (probably), toodles!

mi amiga/o

the sweet memories of youth
just fade
(like the etched marks on our desks)
(or the blood on skirts soiled)
until the single thing you're holding onto
is but a figment of your imagination

tides rise, times move forward
to wallow is to swallow
the fact that you have been defeated.

i'm glad to have met you though.

Self-talk

1. If you want something, then work your ass off to get it.

2. You don't have to get everything you want.

3. What makes you happy? What leaves you empty? If what you want falls under the latter then forget about it.

Love Me If You Dare

French movies are just so much fun! 

Jeux d'enfants joins the ranks of Amelie, Titanic and cinematic wonders that turned my heart into a soggy mess

This movie resonated with me on many levels.

(and well yeah, made me tear up a bit)

Such a cute boy!

There's a love like this, a love that overcomes the boundaries of time and all the evils of real life.

And nope, it's not just in the movies!

Friday night: signs and symbols

what is it about certain things that cause me to shut off my critical judgment and carry on, despite a placard devoid of signs?

what is it about my core that chooses to take certain things for granted, no matter how aplenty the peace and calm i've derived from them?

*tomorrow's the first stat lec exam. i feel SO unprepared.

are we ever prepared in anything in life?

now let not my laziness be rationalized by a pointless philosophical discussion about life.

Bookmarked

What happens if you fall in love with a writer? \\\

http://karenfelloutofbedagain.tumblr.com/post/14327141634/what-happens-if-you-fall-in-love-with-a-writer

Watching Almost Famous right now.

I hate how I'm willing to set aside just about anything for you.

Now, this may sound OA but I'm reaaaally happy with my life now.

Friends, love, career (yeah mehganon!), even roomie life! All these things make me A-OK and contented :)

Studies na lang haha. I shall read my stat thingy now. :)

Morning!

I don't know what to feel anymore.

"Your determination and patience will allow you to achieve your dreams, more than any talent or skill."

Aww. :) This and Beach Boys and home just made my day :))

Nothing makes sense anymore.
I don't bring joy to anyone right now and I'm at the most selfish and unfair to the universe as I can be.

A stroke of inspiration and a humble, orange pingpong ball-- as it turns out, these two may be more similar than you think.

She's got you high and you don't even know yet

Uh-oh
something's stirring
and i feel like i don't like this

222, there i acknowledged it

dwindling

you asked me if i'm depressed or anything
but no, not really

funny, really
how you're getting out of your way
only to get to nowhere.

you
and other stories about superficial people

random comment
turned into something that hurt
(not me though :)) )

one last glance before i obliterate your memory from my consciousness...





done.

First special first this 2012! :">
ADVANCED HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE :))

Level up!

Hey you,

Congrats.

You just earned 100+++ points.
(in my heart hahahah. kilegs. :">)

Keep doing what you're doing, man :))

unpopular opinion 1.0: even worse than the fear of the dark is the fear of being alone. for we are, in fact, all fundamentally alone.

I guess it's the hormones kicking in?

Haha. :))
Nonetheless thanks for making me happy every day. :) >:D<

I should really stop being emotional and dramatic.

On other news, I'm excited about life now. Excited about new and great things that can possibly happen. Chillax. Just have fun. Last but not the least, just be myself and natural.

this week has been emotionally and mentally-taxing to say the least.

then we still have saturday classes! :((( i just wanna sleep

you're still you (josh groban)
overthinking while cramming for hum test tom

overreading is the name of the game today (quite literally)

life is weird beyond words.

you, and you as well. ayoko na talaga T________T

tangina tangina tangina tangina tangina. (sorry for the mura). tangina talaga.

here goes my one year plan. *crosses eyes* you'll see.

Apparently, it is all too easy to fall under the trap of overreading.

maximize my potential!!!

tangina this. what is this crap. =))

[ ] get hot. omg.
[ ] get not-weird.
and stuff =))

agggggghhhh

of all things why does it have to be my "fetish" hahah

Recent convo with a friend made me think about how superficial I can be @-)

It’s gonna take awhile. It’s normal to take awhile. You’ve just gotta fight your way through.“

I am so confused right now but I can't even talk to anyone except for my one friend.

Eh gusto ko eh. Bakit ba. Haha.

"Thanks for the greeting!

Oh and did I mention, it's been one year of mindfuckery since you did the unexpected."

birthday wishes

i hope i'm not asking much haha

-prudence, temperance
-good study habits
-love life (why not hahaha)
-interview with my celeb crush(ok maybe this one is a little bit too much :)) )

42 minutes

or so someone reminded me.

enjoy the last few minutes of my sixteenth year while it lasts! :))

Irrationality strikes again (gasp) :|
[ ] channel my inner Taylor Swift and make this feeling useful

Another one of those aww moments

Advanced Birthday Party @ Mandac's Residence.

Today's affirmation: I am loved. O:-) 
Crush, kailan ka dadagdag sa list? =))

i still dream of you

from time to time.

things to do:
[ ] write a happy song
[ ] write a sad song

[ ] allow myself to be happy
[ ] allow myself to be sad

I miss my friends and family. :(

#forever alone (in the dorm) :))

Firework

Do you ever like a plastic bag?

True enough, it seems like a stupid question but my answer is, yes?

Several reasons:
-I have no energy
-I have no willpower
-I have no time to simply do nothing
-Waiting for certain people seems like a thousand years
-I miss home. Surprise.
-It's getting complicated.
-I just wanna stare into space and not do anything
-Cryyyyyyyy.

Anyway the cracks are surfacing. I just realized the mindfuckery I'm doing/state of confusion I'm causing, the hell. Am I the bad person here?

I actually am more excited about the anniversary, than my birthday. :))

On repeat while I'm cleaning my dorm room.
I love this semi-sorta old jazz song. :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R_f_mMJAezM

dilemma
doubts.
i just realized what i got myself into
i'm in deep ____.

on a completely unrelated note, gabe joined me in the bigkis orientation today with kuya jason and kuya serge. i've been searching for the perfect org to join, and maybe this is it? :DDD @-)

Incapacitating week

please be done now. kthanksbye. :)

gosh. i know i'm being watta-ish here, but i can't stand seeing her name on your wall.

"do the things that you have to do so you can do the things that you want to do."
not working. :(

nakakasakal ang school work at times. no room for creative activities, or the simple act of doing nothing.
tests tests tests. my schedule gets paralyzed when there are tests and i fail to make way for fun things as a result.

is this my labyrinth?

in the end, it's always you who ends up disappointed and distracted.
get a grip, girl :))

from alla's blog.
http://nothingspaces.com/blog/2011/07/12nr-an-introduction/
hihi nice. (going to my to-read list)

Do the three-movie exercise. One of the favorite things I do with groups is to do this exercise I learned about on a writer’s loop. Without thinking too much, list your three favorite movies. Here are three of mine:

• Joy Luck Club
• Lord of the Rings
• Serendipity

Now, examine those three movies and determine the common thread that runs through each.

Mine? I still don't know. Gonna reserve thinking about this when I have lots of free time.

rave:
the blower's daughter
zia quizon's album

wishlist:
the invention of hugo cabret
wonderstruck

now:
bookmark now
common nonsense