I woke up thinking of a person I could not get off my mind. This person evokes a smile in my face and represents everything unexpected in my life. Yet when thrown into moments like this, I cannot not help but shift to my default mode– that is, shrugging this feeling off and facing my endless to-do list instead.
There are still a lot of things I need and want to do before this year ends. I do not think I can accommodate another source of baggage now.
My life is already complicated as it is. I get moody and sullen sometimes, and I don't know if a person could tolerate that for extended periods of time. Except my best friend, of course, but that does not count.
Also, I figured that I'm okay by myself and I do not need anyone to entertain me or make me happy. What I really need to do is cultivate my existing relationships with friends and family since I could not honestly say that all of these relationships are thriving and well-maintained.
I'm still open to anything, but it would take great lengths to change my mind.
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