I've been an awkward person for as long as I could remember. It's not a normal day without tripping down the stairs, being left dumbfounded by a cocky retort of an acquaintance, or feeling stupid after attending a PE class. Those things are already slightly depressing by themselves.
However, for me, those things are not the worst part of being awkward.
Have you ever passed by an old friend in a hallway and pretended to look at other things because you do not want to acknowledge his/her presence, but forcing a smile anyway because the person has seen you already and you do not want to appear as a snob?
Have you ever been asked to give a few words in front after listening to a boring talk or discussion, and standing there not knowing what to do because 1) you don't particularly like speaking in front and 2) you haven't listened at all, which makes things a lot worse?
Have you ever been stuck with an enemy/old flame in an elevator or a room or any secluded place and trying (yet failing hard) to remain composed while millions of things running in your mind?
Have you ever given a fairly clever comment about a person, only to realize that the exactly same person is right behind you?
Have you ever tried giving a serious comment on anything, and getting bursts of laughter instead of decent responses because people were thinking your comment was meant to be a joke?
I hope I'm not alone.
yes. sometimes it feels that way. things happen, people drift apart and they go their separate ways.
ReplyDeleteAs unfortunate as it may be, we just have to accept it and move on as well, nothing can be done anymore. We just have to treasure what we have now and try to hold on for as long as we can. Eventually, the void will be filled and things become better.