Thursday, November 11, 2010

eyes wide open

My life is not perfect, though I'm not one to complain. My current friends bring out the best in me. My family and I are on good terms. Right now, everything seems to be fine and pleasant, as if the great storm secretly occurring in my mind has finally subsided to allow the flourishing of new greens and opportunities.

Some unresolved things concerning my academic, social and (even) love life still bother me, but I wonder if they are worth resolving in the first place. Since I could only do so much with my limited time, energy and willpower, I should start concentrating my effort on things that really matter to me.

Right now, I just want to be a better person. If I can make my friends happy, spend some time with my family and get my daily dose of alone time every night for reflection and contemplation, then that's already more than enough for me. If I can broaden my perspective, and actually be able to do things I never thought I could do before, then that's worth celebrating for.

I acted against the natural flow of things for too long. I wasted my time and energy on the most petty things, and thought too much instead of seizing the day. Unconsciously, pushed away people who love me regardless of all my quirks and oddities, and forgot to take care of myself as well.

I was stuck in a rut for long, really. Never thought of things this way until fairly recently.

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