"No man is an island."
A seemingly no-brainer quote, yet one that I find hard to fully put to heart. I've been told that I sometimes exude an intimidating aura, which tends to shoo people away. Not that I mind, though. I prefer to be alone, except when I'm with my close friends.
Sometimes, though, I long for fun and stimulating conversations with strangers. Most people talk about nonsense crap these days but once in a while, I find a diamond in the rough, a person worth knowing and sharing ideas with. Of course, I may not be spared from utter quirkiness with that person either, but that I can usually deal with. I even find it cool sometimes.
And I'm not a big fan of parties either. I'd rather stay home and lie on my bed while reading my favorite book and drinking a cup of milk. I fee that small talk is 80% superficial, and that people always never mean what they say during those parties. They either i) beat around the bush, then reveal the favor they wanna ask from you after five minutes or so, ii) begin by asking what your life is like, then ask a gazillion questions about the Pisay system, so-and-so. I don't mind that at all, but sometimes, being asked again and again about exactly the same questions can get tiring (not to mention frustrating).
But no, if you think that I'm a mere stubborn brat who wants it her way and intends to keep it that way, you're wrong. I want to APPEAR more open (Machiavelli says you don't really have to be, just appear to be so) and more forgiving when it comes to these parties. My mom often chastises me for my behavior, and I don't want another "the talk" anytime soon. Also, I'm wondering if I'm missing something by being like this, which is why I'd like to see the other side of the fence before settling and becoming certified "AS", if ever.
P.S. Maybe antisocial can be the new emo. Hee.
Sometimes, though, I long for fun and stimulating conversations with strangers. Most people talk about nonsense crap these days but once in a while, I find a diamond in the rough, a person worth knowing and sharing ideas with. Of course, I may not be spared from utter quirkiness with that person either, but that I can usually deal with. I even find it cool sometimes.
And I'm not a big fan of parties either. I'd rather stay home and lie on my bed while reading my favorite book and drinking a cup of milk. I fee that small talk is 80% superficial, and that people always never mean what they say during those parties. They either i) beat around the bush, then reveal the favor they wanna ask from you after five minutes or so, ii) begin by asking what your life is like, then ask a gazillion questions about the Pisay system, so-and-so. I don't mind that at all, but sometimes, being asked again and again about exactly the same questions can get tiring (not to mention frustrating).
But no, if you think that I'm a mere stubborn brat who wants it her way and intends to keep it that way, you're wrong. I want to APPEAR more open (Machiavelli says you don't really have to be, just appear to be so) and more forgiving when it comes to these parties. My mom often chastises me for my behavior, and I don't want another "the talk" anytime soon. Also, I'm wondering if I'm missing something by being like this, which is why I'd like to see the other side of the fence before settling and becoming certified "AS", if ever.
P.S. Maybe antisocial can be the new emo. Hee.
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