This song's been playing in my head for weeks already, and today, I figured that it was for a good reason. I think there will always be a skeptical and careful part of me that will consciously avoid, prevent and minimize any special encounter with the opposite sex. Simply because I'm afraid of mishaps and bad things and basically everything. Not making a choice doesn't mean being exempt from the pain, however.
(And yeah. Add that to the fact that I haven't seen someone seriously interesting interesting for the past few months.)
I've been trying to lay down before me an optimum path that is, as much as possible, fool-proof and nice-on-paper. Because I'm afraid that history will repeat itself and my dreams and happy ending will be sent to oblivion before they even get realized.
Family. Love. Money. Relationships. Life. Happiness.
I've been trying to be strong, okay. Practically my whole life, really.
Patterns are a curse. I want to deviate from the pattern and make the right decisions and make my life happy and successful and meaningful.
I shall not stagnate.
P.S. Oh, by the way, we had this Camia thing a while ago. It was a mini-celebration-slash-reunion for Sarah's birthday. People who attended: Jon, Otan, Amanda, Pauline, Justin, Kristine.
It was just high school all over again okay. Some feelings and things just never go away.
In case I forget (because I forgot my special red notebook and it's in the dorm), I'll record the things we did here: Supposed to watch a movie (What's Your Number), but took a group photo instead. Went near Timezone, and ended up riding carousels. It was sooooo fun (sense the sarcasm :)) ). Then we ate DQ. Mine's strawberry banana (cause that's my favorite flavor).
So yeah, that's basically it. Short and sweet to say the least. I look forward to seeing everyone on Saturday. :)
And with that I end my post. But not before I put two essential pieces of advice for myself (that I stole from Moper):
1) Don't make decisions that you will regret, but
2) Never live a single moment of your life with regret
And yeah, also: Make life awesome. :D
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